I agree, Coc. I remember willing myself to push critical words, pictures, or ideas out of mind to demonstrate my faith and keep my mind clean. When I think I was just cleaning my mind for infestation by the WBTS it sickens me.
On a similar note, we got together with my brothers (JW's) for dinner tonight. It's our ninth anniv. and they were treating us. They both know we aren't doing anything about the dubs but I don't let a lot out because I hope I will make the right comment that makes them think. My brother was telling me how effective the ministry work is and how many thousands get baptized every year and that even if it is just the young, inexperienced, we are told to keep going from door-to-door to re-validate the "truth" in our minds. So we can make a defense when the Great Trib. comes. I was sickened! I would've said the same things a short time ago. But, now that I am on the outside looking in, I actually felt clausterphobic at the idea of submitting to such narrow, controlled thinking. I wanted to say, "No! They want you preaching to reinforce the cult mind control!" But I didn't want to create obstacles so I bit my tongue.
Anyway, like you said, at least we are no longer under the thought control. And others are learning the real truth every day.
Thanks for the quotes. I haven't read that book yet but I can see the need to